what about love ?

Canny in da house =)

this few day . i cant slept well every night .
kept get nightmare . i dunno what's wrong with me .
i just to know this few day i quite worry someone .
the nightmare never be off untill today .
is it that i think too much ? yes may be .

love is luxury .
no one can afford to see it through .no matter how close you can be .
no one can afford to own it whole . no matter how wealthy you can be .
as a lover , is supposed to be understanding his / her past ,
believes in his / her future and accept the way they are .

i donno how many ppl gonna stand in understand for their lover .
i just to know i can do it better . no matter what i met .
i have to calm down myself and find out the answer that i want .
who else thought i not gonna serious with someone ?
is it i'm too calmness for everything ?
cos of the reaction . outsider gonna judge me i'm trying be flirt ?
well . i'm not the gal of that .
when something was happen on me . i going nuts too .
i have to tell myself . i'm not going mad with someone who was belong with me .
its will making the problem more worst than before .
somemore they gonna felt fed up on us ? perhaps ...

my friends was get into a love's matter . she was frustrated about that .
consider she was felt fed up on someone who ever belong with her although she is still loving the someone .
its too much of problem between on them . they kept trying .
end up they was broke up . i felt sad when i saw that .
both were my best friends .
i sad not cos of they cant belong with each other . cos of they may cant have a peace agreement .
why ?
may be they are different . look for them . i learn many lesson from them .
i have to know . love somebody not gonna together with them . just wishing they could stay happy always .
love somebody should be understanding with each other .
love somebody is not focing they do anything for us .
love somebody is supporting they do anything they wanna do if that is right way .
love somebody is not wanted they gonna change the dreamboat of we looking for .
love somebody should be forgive everything they do if that not a big matter .
love somebody is contain all of their defect .
belong with somebody .
not gonna everyday meet .
not gonna to have a love confess for each other everyday .
everything about them you no need to take 100% to know .someday they gonna to honest with us .
not gonna forcing them telling us what they thinking about . just let them do whatever they wanna do .
we just stand a side prepared for them .
if someday they fall stumble down . we just give them a hand .
if someday they gonna relieve their feeling . we just be a good listener .
if someday they make mistakes . we just correct them as humbly .
whenever they feeling happy or sad . we just sharing with them
that is supposed a couple we should be .
if you really love someone . SHOW IT !!! better than TELLING IT !!!

may be i know how to explain what about love . but may be i totally cant do all of that .
but at least i will try my best ...

DAMN !! i met a fucking bastard !!!

Canny in da house =p

hmm .. this few day ... i going nuts soon ...
cos ... i met a bastard recently ...
the bastard who was spent alot money on me ...
i never ask him do that for me .. but he was want to claim back the money from me ?!
WTF !!! who else you are ?! i never forcing you do that for me .
why should i paid back for you ?
is it you gonna decry my reputation ? or else you gonna kill me ?

i doesnt wanna do any explaination for anyone .
may be you're right bastard . cannot believe the gal who elso know in internet .
tot as im lying you . if u inform me as humbly i may pay u back all of the thing ...
but since u blame me as i lie u and kept urge me pay u back something .
i think i not gonna paid u back . the message you still wanna say worry about that i not gonna pay u back ?! hello . who else forcing u do that before ? !
who else telling that no need paid back cos that is u willing do that ?!
you're the lame guy who was i ever meet .
i curious your condition good for gals why didnt any gal can stay along with u
cos you're fucking bastard . who else refused you and you gonna take back something .
you're the mostly selfish guy !! damn you !!

回来了~!

看回上次po的文章日期...两个月了...距离到现在我已经没有来写部落了
可能生活习惯已经改变了...已经没有以前那样的耐性来写部落
可能最后我还是选择了来更新自己的部落
比经它也曾经陪伴过我吧...做人不能那么忘本吧...=p

两个月要说长也并不是很长的日子,要说短也并不是短的日子
这两个月里面发生了很多东西,有开心也有不开心,曾经迷失过...
当跟姐姐和好不久的时候,他发生车祸了...
严重吗?对我来说...严重
对方的驾驶人喝醉了.他妈的."你喝醉了还出来驾车等害人哦,回家睡觉啦"
姐姐的back bone碎了弯了一些,不至于要operation.
脸上因为前镜破裂,姐姐也来不及遮掩什么,脸就这样受伤了
庆幸的是并不会留下疤痕...这是我最关心的
他在3月份发生车祸,他现在的状况好多了
希望他早日康复吧...

说了家人事情.就说说朋友吧...
以前的rubbish gang不再有，以前所谓的好朋友也没有了
我的朋友世界剩下camelia一个人,不管发生什么事情我们都是一起
很开心有他在我的身边支持我...
接下来想要分享的就是...前几天去了kl回来.
我约了一个老朋友出来喝茶哈拉的
我们就去吃些东西.到coffee bean喝咖啡,
彼此说了很多事情.可是我很不明白ms mavis你总要把我介绍给你男人的哥哥呢哈哈!!
老样子.我们都很喜欢说废话.起初的时候感觉有点陌生.不过之后真的好很多了
刚刚去看了他的部落.哎哟...我上镜了...可是我很难看.所以建议别去看.免得得到恶梦lol
看我隔壁的就好了=)

说完了朋友,就要说感情了嘛?
其实我也没有什么想说自己的感情事情
一切顺其自然,因为自己明白了强求是没有幸福的
感情对我来说不重要了.重要的确是每天怎样让自己开心点

不知道是不是对部落没有了那份心.开始懒惰写部落了
以前的自己每天都回来部落.现在开始懒惰了.
可能太多事情发生,所以不知道要如何说起.
不想多说了.继续睡觉.等姐姐回来,再去pasar malam走走